Had one of those days yesterday, you know the kind I mean. The days when you're awake at 5 am, and from then on everything you do is for someone else, and then your hamster dies and people just can't understand why you're so damn moody.
But the kids were both in their beds by nine, bless their little souls. House wasn't on, so I compensated by eating a bowl of ice cream with chocolate syrup, and then some potato chips. Good eating habits be damned, it was resuscitation by caloric overload. Get that "I can do this" feeling started again. Then I took a bath and went to bed. I coped.
Today we'll exchange the poor dead hamster for a live one and see if this one's destined for a long and illustrious career as a D. family pet.
In writing news, I've been running Juniper through the prewriting machine to see if I can make anything of it. I'm learning a lot, particularly about what's wrong. At this point I'm more interested in the other story idea I have, though. Now that I've given myself permission to start something new, I feel like that's the right choice. I was a long time getting here because I was so guarded about letting my nature take over - I'm a great starter and a terrible finisher. I lack temerity. I give up too easily. However, after five years on JUNIPER, I think I've proven I can hack it. Now I need to let that sucker go.
I should probably wash my hair and do some laundry while baby is asleep. Happy writing, ladies!
5 comments:
Dear Cindy,
Oh, no, the poor little critter. Sorry to hear Lamb didn't make it. Poor you, too! I guess cope is all you *can* do on days like that.
I'm with you on the starting/not finishing M.O. I swore I'd finish my western/whatever-it-is before I touched another novel idea because I know that about myself. (And then I accidentally started the fantasy...it was supposed to be a short story but it morphed.) But, unlike you, I've only been at the western for a year and a half, so even if I get tired of it, I don't get to quit and put all my energy into the fantasy. ;)
I think if you've put in five years of hard work and learning on JUNIPER you know enough by now to fairly judge whether to put it aside or not. Could be that working on your new and different type of story will inspire you and give you something new to go back to JUNIPER with later, too (if you want to).
Dear Cindy,
Oh, no, the poor little critter. Sorry to hear Lamb didn't make it. Poor you, too! I guess cope is all you *can* do on days like that.
I'm with you on the starting/not finishing M.O. I swore I'd finish my western/whatever-it-is before I touched another novel idea because I know that about myself. (And then I accidentally started the fantasy...it was supposed to be a short story but it morphed.) But, unlike you, I've only been at the western for a year and a half, so even if I get tired of it, I don't get to quit and put all my energy into the fantasy. ;)
I think if you've put in five years of hard work and learning on JUNIPER you know enough by now to fairly judge whether to put it aside or not. Could be that working on your new and different type of story will inspire you and give you something new to go back to JUNIPER with later, too (if you want to).
Oops, sorry 'bout the double post. My connection hiccupped when I was posting...
MM
Five _years_.
You do NOT give up easily.
Though perhaps you might be a bit stubborn.
{says another 5-year-er.}
Vicki:
Thank you!
Stubborn, me? (blink, blink)
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